Hypo Hydro

Blog while waiting a DotA game to be commenced.

Finally,
My family found out.
It's a big relief. Even though we both have a peace break up. Nothin much. Nothin less.
I guess, it's the right time to do so. Thanks for the memories. Thanks for everything.
I might not be a very perfect boyfriend. But I'm a good friend-to-be, still. =)

For those people who knows the unmasked side of mine, I hope, I could trust everyone of you.
I'm a joker, apparently. I could be very cheerful. I could be nice. I could be just as idiot. Yet I was hoping for supportive words. You guys might think that I am a playboy. Puppy Love as what adults said. I just follow what my heart tells me. So, stop bugging me with those destructive words. I am very kind to tell you so. You could give me any type of advice, but don't you ever drag me from behind. I could do something that is enough for you to suffer if you were using those evil tactics. =)

Buh... Continues DotA. No worries. I am still bangkia.

F.C.U.K

I'm getting more and more fucked up with this fucking fucked life. Please fuck off bloody fuck. Fuck it with all the fucking might to fuck my shitty life. How can I supposed to turn my fucking life back to normal happy life? Fucking holidays makes me feel I'm totally bloody fucking useless bastard. Everything is just so fucked up. Fuck My Life for now.

Cherish life still
Just expressing ma'self

take aim

taking aim
is you
that made me do so

doubt
confusion
worry
wonder
so many many things ran across my mind

I smile
for an instant moment
knowing
I've to pass this test
from God

I will survive...

in the middle of a game...

plum joker

fading rainbow
as sun sets
heard the rain
as cloud came

midst of darkness
where lights came
disappearing hand
where trigger is pulled

move on
life's brief candle
it and it
fall apart

I've failed you
I've failed myself
I've been treated
which I was supposed to be

it's a new start
a new life
a new joke
yet
an old me

If I pull the trigger this time
I thought it's the right time to do so.

说谎

美丽 也只是个虚伪的形容词

我哪有说谎

这只是世界在编的谎言

好久不见了

你

还好吗？

美丽 不再是漂亮

曾经的对象

曾经的念头

想出轨的念头

曾经的你 有多难忘

我们的曾经

让我顿时感觉世界在停电

休息一会儿

我没有说谎

我何必说谎？

只是我真的很健忘

我是个普通的男生

想念你了

现在的我

考完试后的我

就像个颓废的家伙

阴恢恢的心情

彩虹何时才能出现？

这都是谎言

何况也只是个无聊的骗局

我再也不相信自己

我不会假装

只是在逞强

失去了对世界的感觉

失去了感官

失去说有的灵感

迷失自我

被人拆穿

又在伪装

空洞

填补不了

我

都是我吧？

我又在emo了…

IT

It lost

since then

we both know






It gone

long before I realise

sparks gone





It faded

no more

numbness that I could feel





It's too late

swirl between regret and helpless

meer to the end





It has already gone...

now

stored in my memory case

篱笆外的自由

坐在车子里的我，望着车窗外的世界，突然觉得这世上有许多的不公平。在某个交通灯停了下来，看着沟渠浑浊水里，自由自在有着的小鱼儿、马路边的草丛里，爬出来的小蚂蚁们、被养在店楼里的燕子、再回想起刚才在大伯家里的那两只狗狗、心开始觉得酸酸的。

大伯一家人到泰国去玩个几天，家就托我爸来看。我一到他家时，却发现他们的家虽然比我家还要大，却怎么看都不像一个温暖的住家。杂草长满地上没人处理，黄蜂在他家庭院里的一棵树飞来飞去，鱼池里的鲤鱼似乎不是很活泼，而最可怜的还是那只黄金猎犬。当我慢慢地抚摸着它，却发现，它，比印象中来得瘦，也不再开心地笑了（当狗笑的时候，嘴角会提高，喘气声比较大）。看着它闷闷不乐的样子，我自然而然，也被感染。我想，也只好一直抚摸着他，逗逗它吧。带了它出去散散步，它大小解后，却在这时候，有个中年的街坊出现了，我还记得他是这么说的…

中年街坊：“诶，你带它出来，最好跟我看好来，不要让它来我家门前大小便，我知道它很乖的，你要看好来就可以了。”

我：“哦…”

中年街坊：“它啊，每次出来就来我家门前大小便，我骂了它很多次，也跟那个那个…你的阿伯讲了” （自以为是的一副‘子宫’模样）

我：“哦…” （开始不耐烦这些虚伪的人）

中年街坊开始对狗狗自言自语：“下次不要来我家大小便啊…”

他摸了摸狗狗，又对我说：“你看，它几乖…”

老uncle，我在这里想跟你讲3样东西：
1）狗是不会听懂你在说什么‘睾丸’、‘阴茎’话的。
2）有钱daisai? 一副仆街样。
3）uncle，做人也不用假到酱子的，在扮下去，虚伪了就不像了。

oOo ( - . - ) oOo


当我要回的时候，上了车子，家里的狗狗，它仿佛知道我们即将离开，心情又跌入了低潮，懒洋洋的躺在那儿。看了真是叫人心酸啊…

车子开动了，我望着那间无人、静凄凄又没被打理的家，心里感触万分。

我在想，要是在国外的话，我大伯一家人可能就会被告上一条罪行：动物虐待的行为……

世间永远都会充满缺陷和不完美…

简单的复杂

其实很多复杂的东西
很容易就被简单化
当我们开始学会坦白
当我们开始学会勇敢
这时候
世界就会变得很简单美丽

但日益成长的我们
责任、思维、顾虑
把肩膀上的负担
给加重了
我们害怕伤害别人
又不想对不起自己
这时候的我们
就会处于一种心理矛盾的状态
要或不要
该或不该

我们总是会想了很久
透过观察、沉思
来做我们所认为最理想的下一步
但所谓
人算不如天算
有的时候
后果却叫人担忧、可怕

男人是理性动物
而女人却是感性动物
男人常常会去想很多很多未来的事
而女人则注重现在所面对的感觉
男人爱新鲜
女人却爱保鲜
这两种性别
永远都会有不同的想法

爱
可以很复杂
也可以很简单
坦然面对人生
面对问题
面对所有一切的一切
虽然过程很辛苦
但如果结果是理想的
何乐而不为？

我
有很多事情
我好想去做
好想去试
但由于顾虑太多
变得萎缩了
虽然有些想做的事
可能会引起许多不愉快
如果是你
你敢吗？

Thought, Just For You

Tomorrow, it's a girl's birthday. Well, a girl that I met at Station One Meru, on Valentine's Day. I've never post something new for quite sometime. I know, I am not good in handling relationship and sometimes my ignorance made her emotional. So, I would like to take this opportunity to let that girl know that although I'm not by her side on her birthday, Internet that makes us become closer together. That'y why I wrote this song Just For You!

Happy Birthday!




Try not to open this video,
cos... it sounds weird.. hahaha... not really good in singing = ="

平淡

日子
就像倒流的砂石
在玻璃瓶慢慢流逝

失去了所有的灵感
怎么写怎么画
都像坨粪

所有的东西
都好像把我逼的快喘不过气

好多好奇怪的回忆
一直在我脑海里浮现
明知却难制止

我们之间
好像不那么亲密了
距离在搞怪吗？
还是感觉？

或许只是错觉

身体也不那么健康
人生的低潮
真迎向着我而来
只是觉得
都受够了…

就是·爱这样

我以不知道要怎么样了

就是爱这样

身躯不再听从命令

一翻开书本

头上出现的竟是一团雾水

搞不清楚

也不明白

放弃

就很自然的

蔓延到我的意念

答应过你的

要好好读书

害怕你不高兴的样子

更加不想看到你失望的样子

我

就好像在沙时钟里

一分一秒

被沙子吞没

好久没有这样写部落格

也没了灵感

心情的交错及复杂

我

形容不出来

叹气

也就成为我唯一能做的事

我

仿佛听见

藏在心灵里恶魔

在奸笑着

它

打败了我

呼唤我懒惰、恶劣、暴躁的一面

黑色幽默

就是累计在我面具后的结晶品

嘴边不禁露出不自然的笑容

无情讽刺着坐在电脑面前打着这个部落格的人

就是

爱

这样…

sarcasm

It's never been too late
If you wanna made the very first step in study

It's never been too easy
If you don't wanna push yourself hard enough

It's never been too hard
If you had try your best

It's indeed sarcastic to say
that I understand the natural law of study
yet true enough
laziness and procrastination pull me out of my routine running track

I've gone through a stage
where I am really disappointed with myself
I couldn't find a point of equilibrium
between study and co-curriculum activities
between love and friendship
between family and myself

I always thought that I know myself well enough
yet again I've gotta say it sarcastically
I Don't Really Fucking Understand The True Side of Myself

I might look nice, kind, blur, innocent and perhaps underage
In fact, I am confused sometimes with my personality change

I disappointed many ones
and that excluded myself...

STPM is coming
when will I change myself into a matured thinking little teenager?

kuala selangor makan seafood

kaiwen: eh, later nite go KS eat seafood, u on?
bangkia: ok la no problem...
kaiwen: ok. i try ask other ppl.. if confirm i tell u...

The above conversation starts the whole event... after i listen to some famine30 group leader things, i go fetch some buddies. then str8 go kaiwen house wait some snails... zzZ

around 7pm sth like dat we all go KS... 130km/h is my top speed.. @@ wahahaha.. some gay is telling jokes while im driving and sprint all the way to KS... lol.. here's some photos.. XD

-bangkia and milky-

- 2 brokeback mountain gay-

-we indeed looked happy =D-

-cheers and makan lor... look at the sisa-sisa makanan-
-SM and TC, 2 gay lous-

-fuyoh fuyoh, "dai-ga-je" eng so serious-

haha... on my way back home, i drove 130km/h.. saw lots of fancy sports car. frens howling like wolf when they saw those cars.. too excited and they was a bit on alcoholic high @@

that's all.. chaoz. ^^

Finally

Finally, my blue tag is passed on to the next generation. As what our President said, it remains as a doubt whether is menyerahkan kebanggaan kepada AJK baru atau menyerahkan masalah kepada AJK baru. @@

I see some candicates were unhappy because they were not chosen as the new committees. I hope whatever the decision that has been made is the correct one. The new committees hopefully will be a very strong, united and non-political team.

Gambateh! We shall wait and see...

Relieved bangkia.

slow paces

my mood swings. it made me drove slowly yet not safely. all i have in my mind is about u and me. what we did yesterday night. i really put some deep thought into it. for some reasons, i would think that i m way off too childish for u. i love to play. i would love to have some freedoms. the prom we went, considered a tragedy for both of us. i thought u will be enjoying as much as i do. yet, u didn't. the whole tiring night, even when i woke up today, my mind still running and processing the data about u. am i really wrong? i hate myself when i made u sad. i hate myself for not good in making u smile happily. i hate myself. i m out of words to describe myself as a trash. for the time being, it seems like u reply every message reluctantly with only few words. my mind was stucked when i was trying to figure a way to solve our problem. i hardly know. i am just a jerk for u. i am naive. and i really hope that u would understand me. i really wanted to have some fun time in the prom after 2 tiring weeks of baby-sit those juniors on their task. i know that u would think the only focus i have is on my co-curricular activities but not u. sincerely, i am sorry for that. i really cant divide my focus. for past few weeks, the misunderstanding from my family, pressure from the study, all of that had almost drive me crazy. the only happy moment that i have is when u're beside me. yet, i've ruined the moment when i thought it should be enjoyable moment for both of us. i'm sorry if i really let u think that i was leaving u alone in the prom.

It is easy
to love each other deeply

Yet,
it is hard
to live and stay happy together all the time.
相爱简单相处难

crazy syok!

crazy people in a very crazy night, logically and obviously, we did crazy stuff, right?? no doubt about it! at HorSinSai(susin) house, we had our very own way of BBQ, then we were ready for the punked' of the year! 3 bday girl and boy, Samz, Hsienz, Eng will be having their very face go thru our nice nice facial treatment specialty. we kinda like bluff them and told them the cake is rm60 each! unbelievably, they believed it! muahahaha.. then, after we sang bday song, here it comes! PIAK!!! we all throw the cream and do it all over the place @@". Siao! every1 kena la, chiaheng and kokthai were hiding in the house, no dare to come out! ceh! lousy~ nvm, eventually both of them kena too... serious case! 20 X 2 hands with cream are pasting all over their body PARTS. hengchuan, the late comer, is the pities of all. we all prepared and ready for another big punked'! hahaha.. he got his hair all stand up (still standing?) with creams... eeew! yet, it's very enjoyable and memorable and things got sentimental after we went home. muahahaha.. i write this is bcos i wanna make u blur when u read this post and be blur again bcos so many words and words and words!!! yimei is gonna leave us and go to johor to study maktab perguruan. aiyoyoyoyoyo.. she kinda like crying la. we all joke around so she wont so sad. yimei, every1 got their own way of life. dun be sad, we can stil come out and limteh when u come back. dun wory. we geng, we crazy, we siao lang, we highs, we lows, and WE ARE THE TRUE FRENZ!



words of sentimental

Susin the HorSinSai :
Hey guys, thanks for tonight =) its a memorable nite ;) i really enjoyed tonight =) love ya and sweet dream B-)

Yinyin the Eng :
Err.. tonite really suprising me alot.. hahaha.. wei.. i not yet 19 yrd old den u all ed treat me lik tis.. haha.. cos i really din hav any idea about the 'celebration' d.. haha.. n dis is d 2nd time i celebrate bday with a big gang after last year.. n it wil b a memorable bday 4 me 4ever.. thanks u all.. really.. i ed almost cry.. hahahaha.. mai gong la.. hahahahaha.. good nite and sweet dream...

Khershing the KSer :
guys.. thanks for tonight ya.. especially hsien, yy, cyau n sorry for anyone who been targeted and dis night might b the onli night we can play such craz and x restriction.. don angry har.. lolx.. and remember to wash ur butter cream hair onli sleep.. n yichun said tq much 4 tonite.. haha.. nitez sweet dreams

Chzehsien the hsienz :
tell u all a secret, just now when i take shower d water is so cloudy like milk walau so geli like crimb out from sg klang, r u all oso??? 2nite is a swet and memorable nite,thx 2 all of u tat celebrate bday with us, its so sweet and un4gten.. although u all bluf my feel tolf tat d cake cost rm60 bt i reli so hapi and touch.. 1 of my wish is hope v can be fren 4va.. i think is time 2 put a full stop if nt d angpau oso cant cover my credit... lol.. at las just wanna say thx u all over and over again... v r rock n crazy family yoo!! hv a gud nite and swet dream.. true fren, hsienz..

Choryau the Samz :
terima kasih many many for this wild stuff! i've nvr been so much fun for years already! the 60 bucks cake seriuously rock! no hard feelings okay? Mte rocks! =)

Waikit the garfield president :
2day onli gt 1 word 1 say "syok", hehe.. just nw i rili fel very terharu when i saw u all play til so hapy and enjoy. hope we can stil have chance 2 gather like dis. thx 2 all 4coming, thx 2 all that contribute things n energy. last, hope u all wil rmber dis nite. n we hidup as mte ajk, die as mte angle. swet dream

Verntze the Bangkia :
wei.. why write so many? aiyo, i letih tau? i am naib SU, i write and jot down the whole event de mar.. den mayb i gonna take and pass dis laporan to En Nasir. then let him see how strong our relationship is.. not even him can tear apart this kind of strong bond. NO n NEVA! muahahaha...

面具·妆

面具，
可以是一个保护自己的道具，
也可以是用来掩饰自己缺点的一个道具。
当你不想它被猜穿，
却往往一层一层地剖落，
而当你想把它给卸下来，
却怎么卸都卸不掉。

-她，卸下面具-

。
。
。

小丑，
上了浓浓的彩妆，
脸常带着笑容，
到处给人家欢乐，
小丑从来不说话，
手语就是他与人的沟通点，
用沉默，
来看待这世界的现实，
当他伤心时，
只能偷偷地躲在一个角落哭泣，
没人知道，也没人晓得。

-你是否看到他的笑容？-

做回原本的自己，
诚实地对待每一个人，
就是一种诚恳，
一套表达自己的彩妆，
一副对得起自己的面具。

时间的背影

时间，本来就是很抽象的。看不见却有很实在的存在在这世界。
往往时间跟我们擦肩而过，我们还傻傻地在原地徘徊。
当你发现时间已经远远地超越你时，后悔就会像树藤那样慢慢地往你的心灵攀岩、寄生。

每个人都对时间有不同的观念。
有些会一直想跟时间赛跑，无时无刻、不眠不休地努力。
有的会跟时间平行跑动，按时按份地做好自己的东西而得到满足。
其余的则无忧无虑，心想：“还早啦！慢慢来，没什么好急的嘛…”

时间就好像一只很忠实又不会累的跑马，在你的人生旅途中跟随着你。
当你寂寞时，它会慢下来陪着你度过黑暗的夜晚。
当你开心时，它会开心地加速，跑得比谁都快。
当你伤心时，它会跟着你心情的起伏，时快时慢，带你逃离悲伤。

但是，你知道时间的背影是怎么个样子的吗？不清楚，对吧？
其实时间的背影都会因人而异。
很好奇吧？
只要你慢慢地闭上眼睛，深呼吸，放轻松，在回想你在人生旅途走过的点点滴滴，就是时间的背影。
永远都是那么清晰的回忆，却总是那么模糊的记忆。
就因为这样，能记得时间的背影的人不多，能把时间的背影忘掉的人也不多。
学会珍惜它，疼爱它。
它不怕真实世界的现实，只畏惧它主人的不理不睬。
当你领悟到了以上的东西，自然地，它会让你的人生，更加的彩色，更加的幸福。

-当时间停下来的那一刻-

一路向北，一路向前…

OW full report

Day 1:
Once I stepped into the school compound, I was like... er... where are those spideys? They are countable nouns upon my sight. Yet, feeling nervous about the whole event cos I've never been organising such a big event in my school life. Even though I'm just preparing the opening ceremony and the backdrop of the stage. I ain't gonna let mistakes step on me.(I'm a perfectionist LOL...)

Some POYO malay students were just so disobedient. POYO la lebih skit, kalau boleh, jgnlah ko masuk High School Klang (HSK). Pgi studi ko orang pnye choice sekolah dan jgn ko orang pijak ke dalam STK. No-ob! (probably only malay that would understand the words above, I learned how to use malay Messaging Short Form thru'out school life in HSK = =")

There's also some guai lan chinese too. Acting cool, too cool for us to ORIENTATE. Eventually, few people doesn't show up in Orientation Week(OW). As one of the committee of Majlis Tingkatan Enam(MTE), I have the responsibility and heavy duty that was put on my shoulder to make sure the whole event is going smooth. SMOOTH... do you get what I meant? Imagine 250 juniors that tulan all of the committees and try expect them to follow your orders, isn't that EASY?? @@"

Not every junior are the bad ones, there are some good and obedient juniors too. Grateful to have them on the very first day... The opening ceremony is going well. Everything went in quite a satisfying way.

Next, committee YinYin brief about the Musuh Serang thing. What should juniors do when whistle is blown once, twice or trio. It's sort of punishment for the juniors when the situation is out of control for committees to handle. We called upon 2 juniors to show the example for the position of the punishment. 1 POYO malay and 1 dark complexion chinese( if not mistaken, he's name is Ping An jr) XD

Then, I brief about the signature book required for each and every junior. I knew, tomorrow, sure got somebody do my signature book either wrongly or cincai-cincai punye. Just wait and see...

I see many fancy fancy style in their costumes, I cant deny is very pretty, creative and nice, (good job, juniors!) but I remember I told juniors not to create costumes that is so extraordinary, rite? So, I let Kok Thai to speak about their costume. I saw costumes with angry faces, with spideys toys on his hat(o.O), and SOME1 KISS ME PLS.. wth = ="
After that, we ordered juniors to sit in group accordingly. The group arrangement is based on the risalah they got with different colours. We let them have their own groupo discussion about sorakan, slogans, knowing their group members and designs for their group flag with only white cloth and a stick provided. Each group will also have their own group fosters to guide them along.

That day ended with 1 super tiring game, Angkat Tangan. Everyone is asked to hold their hand and arms high and stay in that position until the songs were finished. 3songs for all juniors and 5 songs for the group leader. We, committees started to see the ice broke among the group members. Their cheered for their leader and together they stand as one! Go, juniors!

Statistics and Reports:
15 mins of rest for juniors, 0 secs of rest for committees.
I haven't loss any of my voice. YET.
Musuh serang-once.


Day 2:
Today is just a boring day for both juniors and committees. Ceramah, taklimat, ceramah, taklimat, NON-stop. Planned to go in Mdm Khor's Chemistry class but ended up couching in the Dewan Putra. Listening to about million words from all the penceramahs. Siao! While girls listen to a MALE penceramah talking bout female hygiene issues, boys are ordered to pay a short visit to the library. Briefings from Ketua Pengawas Pusat Sumber, Chua Chong Yong aka Ah Chua and En. Yusri. Watching over 250 spideys sitting in front of the stage, the feeling, is undescribable. Oh ya, Heng Chuan's nice nice specialty 'Mexican Wave Punishment' for juniors. Heng Chuan always the very good EMCEE, we called him, Malaysian version of Jackie Wu. He's humurous, and his speech can get everyone's attention. No doubt bout it! He called himself plastic as juniors didn't greet him when he put off his tag. He asked juniors, "kamu semue colour blind ke? kalau tidak, kenape bila jumpa senior yang merah tagnye tak ucap, jumpa tag biru komiti baru ucap?", juniors were speechless at the moment. Nice BOMB! About one hour before the bell rings and we have to let juniors go back to their home sweet home, committees helped me checked the signature books, I terus bring the tong sampah to the front, I saw many juniors stunned. Those who did it really badly, and without names, just use A4 paper as cover of the signature book, ended up meeting new friends in the tong sampah.

I asked juniors,
"Boleh tak kalau saya buangkan buku tandatangan yang tiada orang nak mengakunye sbg pemiliknye?"

Juniors replied softly,
"boleh........"

I asked again, with a higher pitch and louder voice as the respond is so little,
"Boleh tak kalau saya buang ke dalam tong sampah?"

Juniors replied,
"BOLEH..."

being a bad guy, rite? @@"

After that, Pemberian Nama Foster for the juniors. They indeed looked stunned, blur, wandering, curious, swt, and whatever facial expression that u could have imagine cos when they saw the name of fosters without such wide array of wording in front of them. Some with signs, with equations, with clan name, with stars and plus minus, chinese names that confuses B-A-N-A-N-A-Os (I mean chinese juniors that are english educated and don't know chinese words). Cute laa!

Heng Chuan also told juniors to bring senjata for the war declared-sesi tandatangan! in order to win the war, every juniors must prepare sweets, chocos and things to show out the KEIKHLASAN towards seniors when they are trying to get 80 signatures from seniors, 20 from teachers and 28 committees' signatures. Come ma babeh!

2 golden rules stated from Heng Chuan:
1. The seniors are always right
2. If the seniors happened to be wrong, refer to rule number 1.

Statistics and Reports:
10 mins of rest for juniors and again 0 secs for committees.
Voice loss-10%.
Musuh serang-once or twice.

Day 3:
The 3rd day of OW. Some briefings before the real time of it-sesi tandatangan! 28 committees managing the discipline of over 250 juniors along the way to the Form6 block, Block J. When I walked to the block, I myself stunned as well. Seeing all the monsterous seniors, Yiao Gui (hungry ghost) standing all over the stairs of the block and the gate of Block J. I know how juniors would feel and think as I experienced it myself too.

"Junior-junior sekalian, jumpa senior-senior, kena ucap ape?" committees asked juniors.

"Good Morning seniors (senior......)." Juniors greet in such a messy way.

"Sekali lagi, senior tak ade respond! Tak cukup ikhlas!"

"Selamat Pagi senior-senior!" they greet seniors louder and a bit more ikhlas laa. XD

"Senior-senior, puas hati tak?" committees asked seniors.

Seniors shood they head, and wave their hand, which means not satisfied.

"Junior-junior sekalian, senior-senior masih tidak puas hati dengan ucapan tadi, kamu semue kena lebih ikhlas lagi and lebih kuat lagi! Satu, Dua, Tiga!"

"SELAMAT PAGI! SENIOR-SENIOR!!!!!!"

"Senior di atas, puas hati tak?? Kalau puas hati, ucap balik kepada junior-junior anda!"

"SELAMAT PAGI! JUNIOR-JUNIOR!!!!!!"

That's the spirit that committees of MTE wanted! The spirit of High School Klang!
When everyone is so excited and eager to fight the war, Yin Yin aka Eng, as a discipline master blow her whistle. Haha... juniors are so helpless at the moment when things got so pekchek liao and they still need to do the position to prevent Musuh Serang! @@" At this time, committees told juniors the Do's and Dont's when entering to the Block J.

"Faham tak semue junior?" committee asked.

"FAHAM!" juniors replied. The whistle is blown again to release the juniors from the Musuh Serang. The gate is opened at last, but 2 rows of seniors standing along the entry point to do their duty as Pegawai Pengutip Cukai Gula-Gula! Then every junior rushed into the block, group by group, and run up and down all over the Block J, because they were fooled by seniors in the process of discovering their fosters. A very happy-heavenly moment for seniors and hell-like moment for juniors. Santa Claus is coming to town~ HoHoHo... When I helped some of the juniors to find their foster, give them hints where to find their fosters, I slowly proceed to my class-the peak of the whole Block J, 6A1! I walked into my class, and saw a junior with my foster name on her spidey costume.

She and her friend asked me,
"Committee, where is my foster?"

I pointed her friend and said,
"do you know the nurse is who? (Nurse is actually Committee Lee Lih Yann who went to Melacca to study nursing. Her bf is my classmate! XD) and you know why ur foster wanted a nurse so desporately?"

My junior's friend say she dunno. Then I hint her, is just few steps away from ur sight! eventually she found her foster. and my junior, still blur blur! Hahaha...
Then I asked her,
"you know wenzi (mosquito) is who?"

She shood her head. I was like... OMG, still got people dunno my nickname de... Sob. Then I pointed to a piece of paper that is pasted on the wall of my class and say,
"Do you see the name, Bangkia? It means mosquito in hokkien. and you see my name? What's my name?" I pekchek liao.

She looked into my name tag and interpret a bit... Lau Vern Tze, Lao WenZi, wenzi, mosquitos, bangkia.... then she sees the meaning behind everything. She smile and said,
"So, it's you la, committee?"

I nodded my head. Then I bring her to find signature of teachers, seniors and some committees. I sang song along with Sze Yee and pleased teacher finally. Hahaha... Especially Pn Thye. She said I sang better than my junior. = ="

The first time that I feel like I'm like a star with paparazzi all over, trying to get signature from me, the feeling is so horrible, I can't see my junior, what is presented in front of me, is just signature books, sweets and chocolates... Gosh... Luckily my junior very seng mok, she know how to get every senior signature when the seniors' junior is getting my signature. Hahaha.. Way to go, Sze Yee... I like to play with juniors, I asked them to greet me loudly in order to get my signature, in return, I shouted to them after they got my signature.

"Good morning, committee, can I have ur signature please?"

" I can't hear u, louder abit!"

"GOOD MORNING COMMITEE!"

"GOOD MORNING JUNIOR!!"
then I sign his/her book.

"thank you, committee..."

"Har? What?? I can't hear u."

"THANK YOU, COMMITTEE!"

"WELCOME, JUNIOR!!"
it's very enjoyable moment. XD

After the sesi tandatangan is over, we asked juniors to gather in the hall. No time to eat and rest for all of us. Except those with gastric. We don't want any people suffer from the gastric pain and faint. So we asked if there's any juniors who couldn't stand hunger and bring them to the canteen to fill their empty stomach. Then we have some ice-breaking game and group activities for the juniors. They discussed about their perfomance and the flag that they had designed.

Statistics and Reports:
O secs of resting for both juniors and committees.
Voice loss-50%
Musuh Serang-once
Juniors stayback for perfomance practise-until 5pm evening (rajinnya! nice one, juniors!)

Day 4:
When I step into HSK, immediately I saw 1 group, I forgot which group is that, practising their dance in front of the entrance of the Hall near the side gate of the school. I mean whole group! I looked at them, they were so concentrating until they didn't notice I'm there. Praise for them! And when I walked pass juniors, I noticed 1 thing, that is juniors started to greet us at their own will. They... changed, which really touched me. They have gone 1 step further and a step closer to maturity. I smiled at them. Then we started to prepare chairs and tables for the next event-registration for co-curicular clubs for juniors to join. After that, sesi tandatangan start again. I lead my junior and looked for teachers. Run up and down, here and there... OMG... Letihnya... hahaha.. Today, my style change, juniors that wanted my signature have to answer my questions correctly. For example,

I asked,
"your junior's junior's junior's foster's foster's foster's is who? (the answer is you yourself laa)

Many juniors just stared at me, confused and blur... Hahaha, gotcha!

I remember Heng Chuan told juniors,
"Hari ini hari keempat Minggu Orientasi, kami tak nak marah marah lagi junior-junior. Saya memang harap yang junior sudah boleh berdisiplin and berdikari. Boleh tak junior?"

"BOLEH!!" juniors replied.

"boleh tak?" He asked again.

"BOLEH!!!!" juniors replied second time.

"bagus!" He smiled.

"Sesi tandatangan tadi, seronok tak?"

"seronok!"

"Saya tau semue sudah letih, saya letih juga, tapi di sini saya nak show satu benda. tunggu saya, ya..." He went back stage and took something out.

He showed to every junior what his junior gave him as a thankyou gift as her foster. A very nice piece of artwork from his junior, Ng Yi Mei. Then he reminded juniors to also prepare something not expensive but with sincerity, to show appreciation to fosters.

After school, many group stay back and practise for their perfomance. Some rehearse on the stage too. I quickly prepare for the closing ceremony things and gosh, at last finished it by 6pm. Some juniors stayback as late as us. Really I've got nothin to say. Just feel dat they all were so PIA!

Statistics and Reports:
0 mins of rest for juniors and seniors again.
voice loss-40%
juniors still stayback until 5pm.
Tiring day for me. Dehydrated.


Day 5:
The last day of OW. The final jam for the whole event. Every group has prepared themselves to perform on stage. Committees invited seniors to come down to the hall and together we all share the moment of closing ceremony of OW. It's indeed a sad day, but also relieve to see all the juniors has grown up. After the closing ceremony ended, we gave juniors a very last chance to get signature from MTE teachers and seniors to complete their signature books. Then slide show is put on as the memories flashed in front of us. The situation went higher and higher. After that, 15 mins of recess for juniors and seniors. After rejuvenated, everyone was ready for the perfomance!!! Every junior tried their very best to perform on stage. Booo's from seniors, cheers from juniors. There's interaction between seniors and juniors. It's a very fun day indeed. That day, ended fast. In just a blink of an eye, the final jam ended. Committees said sorry to juniors if there's any misunderstanding and harrasment without intention has been made. We stood in a looooong row like Dato and Datin and waited juniors to came forward to shake hands and say thank you. Thanks to all teachers and fellow committees that work together as a team! Sentiments touches everyone's bottom of their jumping heart. Then, many juniors take the opportunity to take photos with seniors, committees and friends to leave a wonderful memories... memories that couldn't be erased even by time. Juniors, Gambateh!!!

Statistics and Reports:
15 mins of rest for juniors and seniors, 0 secs for committees (we can be semi-god, no nid eat for 5 days)
voice loss-70%

p/s: juniors have grown up and matured in the sense of discipline, acting, communication skills, socialise skills and blabla..

pair meh pair? never see b4 ka?

MTE 28 AJK + 1 ex-AJK, Lee Lih Yann + AJK MTE 07/08, Yichun

group photo, but I am at a kissing pose... LOL

1..2..3..up (pattern banyak LOL)

ok ok.. serious liao.. poh li jr, bangkia, and siu keih jr

bangkia and (forgot his name @@", will put up his name soon.. swt)

Ng Yi Mei jr and bangkia

Yik Kwong jr(he changed the most thru'out OW *touched*) and Sin Yee

Kian Wei jr(1st day he came to HSK, his hair was like... David Beckham) and Sin Yee

bangkia, Shin jr, Samz

bangkia and shuwen jr (shuwen, this pic i steal from your blog XD)

Lih Yann(ex-committee of MTE, currently studying nursing in Melacca) and Sin Yee

Sweets........... overloaded

More photos to be uploaded, stay update ;)

Allow me to type in chinese.
心情复杂、交叉
感觉你们都长大了
学弟学妹们
你们要好好加油
把我们留下给你们的精神
继续传给下一代…

另一种的发现

傻傻的我，不知道那么做，对你是一种极大的伤害，让你伤心落泪。

在跟你聊电话，刹那间发现，我…好像…真的好久没听见你的笑声了。是我不小心，忽略了你。让你感觉我没有注重你，让你失去了安全感…

这次你回去读书，要等上3个礼拜才能再见，就因为这样，彼此的心，开始乱了方向。正因为太思念，往往对彼此小小的冷漠产生幻觉及不好的想象。对不起，我，让你受了伤害。

谢谢你体谅我的不完美。
也谢谢你愿意开口提出了我的缺点。
谢谢你，让我有改过的机会。
也谢谢你，那么的爱我。

谢谢你那么努力地为我付出…

那句话

我曾在某个电台听见一位DJ开了个话题：

“你们觉得远距离的爱情会开花结果吗？”

听众都纷纷发表了意见。然后，那位DJ就做了个结论。

“其实不管你们的爱情是远距离的或近距离的，《相信》这两个字扮演着很重要的角色。有时候，远距离的恋情还会比近距离的来得好，因为在每次的相聚都会很浪漫，很珍惜。至于那些天天都能相见的情侣们，更加要懂得珍惜彼此，努力地把你们的爱情经营下去。至于那些在情路上不是很顺利的人，别因为上一段的不愉快，而永远把自己关在黑暗自我的心灵里，试着把心门打开，向世界宣言，相信有一天幸福也会降临。这样，你的人生就会充实，而快乐。

当时我听了之后，感触万分…


我只想在这跟你说：

我会很努力地经营我们的爱情，相信我，给我一个证明的机会…

·I ♥ U·

彩虹·约定

还记得
在彩虹出现的那一天
我们许下了约定
426
我们赶上了往幸福海洋出发的巴士
一路上
停停走走
看见许多人也搭上了这辆巴士
有的含泪
有的面无表情
有的则春风满面的
而我们
不知不觉地靠着彼此
用体温让充满爱的甜梦给酝酿出来
一路走着
我们到达了幸福的目的地
手牵着手
望着对方
微笑了
往幸福世界的大门前进
大门旁还站着两位幸福小天使
祝福每一位的到来
也就这样
我们爱的旅途因此而展开了…

So this is wat i call tag?

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
cheeks of course... XD chubby enough, another soft part besides lips

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
@@ blur blur lor~ but grateful cos she needs to wake up as early as me to wake me up... XD

3. Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
with her of course

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
spoiled as in which aspect?? nyek nyek~

5. Will you ever donate blood?
im blood sucker... not blood donator = =

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?

let me think... if nt mistaken, yeah...

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
currently no target.

8. What does your last text message say?
晚安 :-* kiss kiss o.O

9. What are you thinking right now?
Ms strawberry T.T

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
not sure...

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
12am..

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
is a gift from my parent..

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
yea.. Ms strawberry of course XD

14. Who was the last person who text you?
Ms Strawberry

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz...

don't feel like tagging other people... muahaha..

I've deleted the questions cos... i don't feel like tagging other people.. it's kinda lame.. = =

我都知道

其实一直以来，我都知道，你还是很想跳舞，只是因为你受伤的腰椎，害得你不能像以前那样在舞台的前后展现你的舞姿。好惭愧，为什么我却一点也帮不上忙…

我能了解你的处境，因为我能想象我的双手不能再弹琴、画画的感觉，即无奈又遗憾…

我现在还没有经济能力，赚不到钱来帮你，但我答应你，我会努力到底。我现在唯一能做的，是尽我所能让你每天快快乐乐，减轻你的压力，另一方面好好读书，将来才能有比较好的工作机会。

希望

你会吃醋吗？

那天，你告诉我在前一天的晚上，你因为和两个男生聊天，所以很迟才睡，还问我，
“酱子你会吃醋吗？”

我很直接的说，
“我不会吃醋的，只是下次不要聊到那么夜啊，看你今天，累累了，等下痘痘会生多多的…”

你，眨眨眼睛，给了我一个很可爱的笑容(你的招牌动作）。而我，也傻笑了，摸摸你柔柔的头发，充满爱的气氛顿时弥漫着四周…

我猜你应该会很好奇为什么我会这样回答你吧？
因为介意和吃醋是有分别的。要是你问我介不介意，我肯定会说我会。你还告诉我说你的朋友的男友会吃酱子的醋。还真难相信世界上有那么小气的男生。 @@"

给天下小气的男生一个小忠告：
其实道理很简单，要是你的女友会问你这种问题，告诉你她和其他男生做什么事，就代表她其实很爱你，她想看看你的反应，看你是否关心她、爱她。她要的不是你吃的醋，而是一份看不到，听不到，摸不到，却只能用心来感受的安全感。就那么简单！只是身为一个男生，不应该连这种小干醋都记在心里。难道你有跟你的女性朋友聊天，她就不能和她的男性朋友聊吗？难道你想约束她一辈子，没有朋友，乏味的生活方式，和每天只会吃干醋的你相处吗？醒醒吧，小气的男生们，看开点，要是她不爱你，那样她就不会在茫茫人海中选择你啊…

只是一些小道理
有意见的话
留言吧…

相思病

距离
仅是种考验
在你我的感情世界里
反复地徘徊
就像恶魔一样对着我奸笑

距离
仅是种享受
能让你我更加珍惜彼此
每次能相聚的我们
就像花草树木被灌溉一样

距离
仅是种幻觉
看似很遥远的地方
相连在一起的心的中间
就像牵着一条透明的线

距离
究竟还是距离
不管心怎么看待
事实还是事实
等待着两个礼拜后的相聚
也就这样
彼此都得了相思病
无可救药…

好久都没发作的胃痛又发作了
是不是相思病在作怪
：‘（

今天

今天那些junior都被训导了，看见老师和学长都不称呼，多没礼貌。只是，我还是笑笑对待他们，不想用太蛮横的方式对他们。毕竟他们也是人啊…你要让学弟学妹们尊重你，你就要先尊重他们啊…

今天在班，唯有自习，很多老师都没进班，闷到～幸好有湄陪老蚊 XD
在做着数学题时，看见坐在前面的班长和副班长，在甜蜜的一起读书，时不时头靠着头，心里，莫名其妙的开始想念你。

今天，你就要回去读书了。因为生小小蛇，所以你回来一个礼拜，养病。看见你那样，我好不好受哦…便带你去给一位阿嬷抓蛇，还照那位阿嬷的吩咐，弄了药给你搽。希望你快点好起来。

今天，还是今天，过了今天，就是明天，而今天，就会变成昨天。心里想，像我们这些健康的人，永远不会珍惜身边的人事物，因为我们都会想，我们还有很多很多个明天，但是对于那些健康已经出了问题的人，反而会更加了解，每一天活下来的意义，虽然有时会病痛到睡不着，半夜爽爽就打扰身边的朋友，只是这一些我都能体会，因为他们只想趁这机会去好好的跟朋友相处，开开心心的过日子。祝福你，中国国宝。

那些看懂的人，
跟我一起祈祷；
看不懂的人，
也跟我祈祷；
至于那些看懂一半的人，
别问那么多，
迟早你们会知道的，
不知道好过知道…

你送给我的祝福

相隔了两个礼拜，我们重逢了，虽然还是一样看看戏，吃吃东西，却还是一样的甜蜜，快乐。同时的我们，越来越了解对方了。有增无减的爱，有减无增的距离…

-加油 <3-

写在手上的祝福是会被水和时间冲淡
刻在心上的祝福却已深深地储存在脑海里的某个角落…

Mo-ti-va-tion

I've enlightened my will and please myself to study hard, it's just few months away from the freaking real STPM, one of the toughest examination the world has recognized (questions' standard are high, marking scheme is like down to the well though, Malaysian maah, what can I do?? XD)

Mid-year examination is also around the corner. 18th of May is so damn near man. I really mean it cos I've tonnes of homework and chapters that are needed for me to catch up. Gosh...

Junior of year 2009 is coming in for registration very soon. 1 more week and my school will once again full of new and unfamiliar faces yet refreshment to the dull, boring school life. As one of MTE member, I've gotta make the Orientation Week successful with other MTE members too.

Recently, for those who are little fans of my blog, should know that I've clicked into the world of love. Many of you would think that our love is sweet and fairy-tale-like, right? I agree with that, yet time is the key factor for all of that, I've learned to manage my time well so that my 24hours can be fully utilized between study, co-curricular activities, sleep, play, friends, family, love and myself. My timetable is now packed and tightly arranged. You're totally wrong and not understand me well enough if you think that I would think it's tiring and exhausting. Optimism made my life colourful. Sweet voice in every morning call, the encouragous supports, words in our sms, the constant co-existance of loving heart between us, the promises among ourselves and even just a simple smile are the MOTIVATION of my life, my very new way of life...


For those who planned to go for Form6, here's the link to check the list:
www.moe.gov.my

Oxygen is not the main supplement for my heart to beat anymore,
it's you that made my life goes on.

想念

想念…
你那飘逸的发香
靠在我肩膀上的体温
柔柔的脸颊
魅力无穷的微笑
小小的手
会说话的小眼睛
温柔的声音
你黑带点褐色的头发
可爱的刘海
你的每一个动作
轻轻抚摸我的头

真的很想念
*叹气*

我们的everyday

每当我想你时，我都会看着你吐舌头的照照，不禁傻笑着。

每当我想你时，我都会闭上眼睛，回忆着我们的点点滴滴，甜甜的，我笑了。

每当我想你时，在简讯里，我都会告诉你。

每当我想你时，深夜里，我都会日有所思，夜有所梦。

每当我想你时，别人怎么叫我，我都会听不到的，脑袋放空。

每当我想你时，我的眼都是没神的，呆呆的。

每当我想你时，有时後，在班上，我会躺在桌上，慢慢的眼眶湿了。

******

我们牵着手一起走的第一步…
感觉很开心，
因为相隔了一段日子的我们，
终于能再次见到对方，
看见彼此那幸福的笑容。

我们牵着手一起走的第二步…
感觉很幸福，
因为此时此刻的我们，
就是如此的甜蜜。

我们牵着手走着的第三步…
感觉很温暖，
因为走在冷冰冰的空气里，
彼此都用体温来为对方冷冷的手掌心取暖。

我们牵着手走着的第四步…
感觉很感动，
因为能够享受每分每秒的幸福，
尽所能的珍惜所发生的一切。

我们牵着手走着走着…
不知不觉已经走了上千步…

却在我们牵着手即将踏出的最后一步…
感觉很舍不得，
因为不知道何时才能再相聚，
我们俩顿时沉默了。

我们牵着手一起走的最后一步…
停下了脚步，
含泪感动的微笑了，
感激彼此那么努力的保持这一段感情，
虽然这次相聚时间结束了，
却意味着下次相聚机会的到来。

You are indeed my everyday,
my everything...

因为她很美啊…

“当你跟她一起出去逛街时，会不会总是有人一直瞄你们至少一眼啊？” 我有点吞吞吐吐地。

“会啊！因为她很美啊！” 他毫不犹豫地回答了我的问题。

“哦~” 我自然而然地回应了他。

“怎么突然那样问啊？” 他很好奇地问我。

“其实没什么啦…只是我感到很奇怪，每次当我跟她走在一起，手牵着手时，旁边的路人总是会看我们一眼，那样让我感到有点不自在罢了……”

“哦…我每次都会发现有人看她啊，她…真的很美啊…所以有人看她也不出奇啊…” 他对着我微笑地回答。

我看着副充满自信、替他女友感到骄傲、永远那么乐观的样子，仿佛解开了心底的疑惑，让本来有点闷闷不乐的心情顿时出现了一道七彩的霓桥。

我一直都以为看着自己爱的人离开
是一件痛苦的事情
却发现原来我错了
其实要离开自己爱的人到一个远远的地方去
让自己的爱人伤心
那才是一种无法形容的痛与折磨
这是我从她的眼泪中领悟到的…

不言语的告白

在送你回家的时候，你的食指一直在我掌心轻轻的敲，blur blur的我很迟钝。还以为你要做什么，结果当我看着你时，你在我手上写了i love u，我顿时有种想哭的感觉，幸好我还强忍得住眼泪。我也在你手掌心写了i love u 2。之后，我们用很幸福的眼神看着对方，却也很无奈的微笑了，毕竟时间打败了我们。

眼眶有点湿，视线也有点模糊
4月26日 ，你与我的世界相连在一起了…
谢谢你，放心把你的心交给我
我会用我的生命来保管、疼爱、无时无刻捧在手心
用我的体温来让你的心取暖 =）

Words that do the work

It's rather a relieve to see you have a nice rest after a day of outing with me. I knew it's tiring for you to rush up and down from Cheras to Klang just to meet with me, weekly. The air-con is turned on, cold breeze fills the room. Being together, sharing thoughts, laughter and even your problems. The unique scent you brought to me, the cuteness of your act, the time when we hold hands, all of these made me to be the most "bahagia" guy on earth, believe it! I will cherish every moment that we had together as in the month of May, the chances of meeting each other would presents a loom in numbers. I hate to even think about it but the time will come, eventually. I am blogging this when you are sleeping on my bed, comfortably. =)

Do not envy me,
as it would eventually cause you to be emotionally imbalanced.
Search and trust in your fate.

今晚

今晚的我睡不着
不知道是因为下午睡过头了
还是担心你
你说很害怕独自一个人在黑暗里
会因此睡不好
我好想马上飞去找你
陪你
哄你入睡
就算我会累
只要你睡得好
什么都无所谓
我知道我不能 24-7 陪在你身边照顾你
只能透过电话
问候你
安抚你… =/

当你真心地爱一个人
你就会真心地为他（她）付出
切记
爱情不是游戏
就算在你人生所遇到的都不是好人
别气馁
相信爱情的纯、真、洁
爱情总会找上门的
至于那些已有情人的人
惜护、爱护、守护
你手上捧着热哄哄的爱情
祝福你们～

就告诉你们吧

你回来了！那一天的我们，约好要一起看戏，我到你家去载你。虽然头有点痛，但跟你在一起的时光，就像麻醉剂那，当我看见你时，整个人都精神起来。

到了Aeon Bkt Tinggi，我鼓起勇气，牵起你的小手，你很调皮，把手拉开，然后往我手臂捉，就这样一起上了电梯，到了戏院买了coming soon的戏票，是couple seat哦~

看戏时，你喂我吃巧克力。由于那里的空气较冷，我冷冷的手，慢慢地牵着你的手，那时候，真的感觉到很温暖，你还说我的手像女生的手般，细细柔柔的（因为我连煮东西也要用手套啊XD）。
不知不觉，我感觉到你的头靠着我的肩旁上，一阵阵发香弥漫在空中，暖暖的头，贴在我的脸颊。我问你是不是害怕了，你都不做回应，只是静静的靠着，我也不再多问，享受着那幸福的每一分每一秒。
自然而然，我往你柔柔的脸颊啾了一下，我微笑了。我们的手紧紧牵着不放，看着放映在荧幕上的恐怖画面。我只能说，时间是无情的，很快的，2小时的戏结束了。

在吃pizza时，你做了个超可爱的动作，差点让我吞不下那口pizza，那时候，我发现了你可爱的一面。
吃完了以后，本想在看多一部戏，只是一些原因不允许我们。便打算去我外婆家坐一坐，在路上，我还是牵着你的手，真的很幸福。到了外婆家，你很舍不得放开手，我也是如此，只是…
之后，我便载你回家了，路途中的天空，很令人怀念，你说那天空的颜色很美。就像彩虹一样，有黄、橙、绿、蓝、紫和少许的灰色。夕阳，就是那么的迷人。又到了送你回家的时候，心里，又开始舍不得，想哭又哭不出的感动，我知道你也一样，只是很努力的压抑着……

我发现
我们越陷越深

无言

我们…可惜




记于2009年4月20日

只有我们才能了解的一个post

你·我

我累时，你会在精神上支持我…
你累时，我会停止跟你sms，一直催你去休息。

我想你时，我会一直keylock和unlock我的手机，因为，手机的screensaver是你的照照。
我猜你也想我，所以你会告诉我你想我。

我会很傻，只想着要怎么才能让你更开心。
我猜你知道我很傻，所以会在我面前，展现你的笑容。

我很依赖，什么事都会依赖你。
我猜你知道我很依赖，所以还是让我依赖你。

我真的觉得自己很幸福，有时候，心头会涌上一股热，有种心掉的感觉。
我猜你也觉得自己很幸福，所以一直告诉我你有多么的幸福。

我有时会被你的一举一动所感动，突然间鼻子痒痒的。
我猜你应该也会吧，只是你很会收藏起来。

我会很担心你在那边的安全，会一直提醒你要小心。
我猜你应该也是吧，当我自己一个人驾驶，你会叫我小心，别开太快。

我会时不时跟你报告我的踪迹，好让你放心。
你也会跟我说，我猜，你应该也是不要我太担心你吧。

当你遇到困境，我会第一时间开导你，好让你走出那些人生荆棘。
当我遇到困境，你也会很关心我，一只叫我要加油！

我们常常在电话里，都会一直傻笑。
也许，那就是说不出的幸福。

你离开之前

今天，整个早上，都是雨天。从昨晚就下到今天早上。是老天爷在哭泣吗？再多一会，你就要离开吧生，到安邦那里去读书了。可我还是带着很开心的心情过了这一天。因为在你离开之前，我还能再次看见你。你说你姐想看看我是不是坏人，我就傻乎乎地去找你。你姐姐的问题，问倒了我。尴尬，却莫名奇妙地微笑着。当我不知道要怎么回答你姐的问题时，我便转头看着你。你也笑了。

“你现在form几啊？”她姐问我说。

“Form6啊，很不像啊？”我反问她的姐。

“对咯，很不像，看你样子很像很小…没有那种Form6学生应该有的感觉。”

“啊…呵呵…” 我不知道要怎么回答。

“真的很斯文哦？” 她的姐笑着说我。

“啊？！有…吗？！” 我顿时面红耳赤。

“你怎么会在这啊？酱得空哦？在这游荡啊？” 她姐又问我。

“我刚才去做点东西，然后就来这里吃咯…” 我回答说。

“你，真的很瘦咧，要吃多多啊，我看风吹你就倒了hor…” 她又说我。

“姐，他都吃不肥的…” 那是她第一次帮我挡了她姐的问题。

“我试过被风吹，没有倒，只是倾斜了十几度罢了…” 我习惯性说了个冷笑话…顿时气氛冷了起来。

聊着聊着，她们吃完了东西，也是时候离开了。跟她们说了“掰掰”后，我就离开了。我才刚走了几步，很不舍得地转了个头，看见她也看着我，互相挥手…慢慢地，看着她的背影随着escalator一格一格下降直到她从我视线消失为止…

“她，真的离开了。” 我告诉自己。

之后，
我们继续sms，
你还说你姐喜欢像我这种类型的男生，
很可爱，
我就知道，
我始终摆脱不了这个形象…

倒数 … …

10. 今天拜二4月14号…是我认识你的第二个月。明天，你就会去一个离我远远的地方读书了。很奇怪，今天都没下雨耶。看你换了个新发型，刚才一直忍不住抚摸了你的头。抗拒不了的可爱。你说要bluetooth给我的图片，还差点发错给人家，真的是blur啦你！哈哈哈哈…

9. 下午不小心烫伤了右手掌，手指的皮还爆开了，听起来很痛，很恐怖吧？其实我只感觉到麻麻的，然后有一种有如火在肉里猛烧的刺痛，放了米酒，就不痛了。最重要的，是你那安抚我的简讯，让我在刹那间，感觉不到疼痛了。

8. 当我看着你的眼睛，有一种不舍得的感动，哭不出的，只是有点鼻子痒痒的。我知道，我对你不能太依赖，因为怕你会把我宠坏。这几天的早上，都是你当我的闹钟，很像小孩子吧…

7. 礼拜天4月12号…下雨天的晚餐是你陪我一起吃的，心里感到莫名的开心，因为，在你的不做回应的微笑里，我仿佛看见了甜甜的温暖。好玩的你，坚持不开口，只是跟我点头和摇头，害得我不知所措，但却在那时候，我笑了，笑着你的可爱。

6. 吃完晚餐，第一次带你去我外婆家，已经料到会给亲戚们讲的，就给他们讲吧，反正是属于我们的，对他们来讲只是个很抽象的话题，看到，却感受不到我们的之间。

5. 星期二，4月7号，那天晚上，我记得你说过，要是要看到彩虹，不一定要等到彩虹的出现才能看到，可以用画出来，也可以用CD的反面用光来反射。我想了想，其实还有一种更特别的方法，便透过电话，弹了《彩虹》给你听，虽然看不到，但却随着音符，用最丰富的想象力让彩虹在你脑海里浮现。*感动*
星期五，4月10号，下雨天，我带了你到我家，也弹了钢琴给你听。你静静的坐在我身边，当我转头看着你，你给了我一个很甜的笑容。
星期六，4月4号，那天也是下雨天，也就是蚊子和草莓故事的诞生…

4. 星期六，3月28日，没错！还是下雨天！也是earth hour的那一天，第一次会对我最爱的咖啡感到反胃，那一天，戴着隐形眼镜，绑起马尾的你，显得非比寻常的…迷人…

3. 星期三、四。3月17、18号，在cameron highland的那两天，想的，看到的，听到的，感受到的，都是你。我说我很冷，想听你的声音，就打了电话给你，只是那一夜，真的很冷，累了，脑袋胡思乱想，说好要打电话给你，却不知不觉，睡着了。*对不起*
买了一些东西，刚从cameron回到吧生，就赶着包花，blur blur酱，送给你，也blur blur酱，感到自己已经慢慢地，无法自拔…

2. 3月7号，也是星期日，第一次跟你约会，那一天，就是还是下雨天！看了《幸福万岁》。看到你很投入的笑着那部戏的梗，自己也傻笑了，一起看完，再去mamak给朋友酸。也给妹妹像追问囚犯那样问东问西…

1. 2月14号，情人节，第一次，遇见了你这个天使，让我对爱有回了一股冲劲，傻傻的跟你要了电话号码，就这样，展开了我们俩的故事…

以上都是无法被取代的回忆，
当我倒数着我们的之间，
其实我是不要让我自己倒数明天的到来，
害怕、担心、不舍得，
这都会很自然的找上门来，
我压抑不了，
只能在心里说，
“我爱你 ”。

雨·湄

始终还是逃避不了… @@

可能是天太感动了，所以，每一次我跟她出来，都一定下雨…

太可爱了，太神奇了！

天啊天，你就别再玩了啦，几岁了？世界上那么多人，为什么就是那么喜欢作弄我 T.T

雨湄 XD

打勾勾

“你一定要考上60分啊！”

“60？！很难咧～ 我看06比较容易…哈哈哈…”

“是60，不是06，ok?” 她左手比了个6的手势，右手则握个拳头。

“可是，从我这个方向看过去，我看到06哦… :p ” 我调戏她说。

“那样哦，那就酱咯。” 她把那两只小小的手交叉。

“我还是看到06，因为我从你眼睛的角度看…哈哈哈哈…”我再次调戏她。

“你啊！”她看着我，嘴挂着一丝很无奈的笑容。

“好啦，不逗你啦，60就60！”看到她的笑容，我认输了。

“这可是你说的噢！”她伸出右手，把小指给升起来。我愣了一下，不知不觉，在那一刻，我们打了个勾勾…

…

…

“我不用读都可以考到60分咧，厉害吧！”她突然向我炫耀了起来。我看着她那可爱又炫耀的模样，傻笑着，手情不自禁抚摸了她的头…

这就是我在送她回家路途中所说好的约定…

傻事

当你恋爱了，你都会做很多很多的傻事。例如说：

就算累了，你都愿意陪他（她）到他（她）睡为止

就算你再怎么爱赖床，也会早早起身，只为了准备早餐给他（她）

就算你几不开心，当你在他（她）面前，你都会表示得一副很开心的样子

就算你知道那样做会被爸妈痛骂一顿，你也会不顾一切坚持到底

就算你到哪里去，你都会想到他（她）

就算你已经没有什么钱了，你都会想把那些钱花在他（她）身上

就算你在怎么忙，当你一休息或停下来的那一刻，脑袋出现的一定会是他（她）

当你看到一样很美的东西，你都会想买下来，再送给他（她）

当你失去方向时，你都会投靠他（她）

当你伤心时，你都不会想带着你的伤心去烦他（他）

当你傻笑时，大致上都是因为想到他（她）

当你害怕时，你都会希望那时候会有他（她）在身旁陪伴

当你开心时，你都会与他（她）分享那份喜悦

当你受伤时，你都会想那个为你服药的人是他（她），自然而然，伤口不痛了

当你在你做最有信心的东西时，你最希望他（她）会看到你所散发出的魅力



当你读完以上的废话时，脑袋里一直出现某某人，就很潜意识地证明了你恋爱了…

而那一夜的我，通过电话，弹了《彩虹》给她听…

蚊子与草莓的故事

草莓要去一个离蚊子远远的地方读书。蚊子很不舍得，就决定要在草莓离开的前一天约草莓出来。在蚊子飞着去找草莓的路途，说的奇怪，所有的红绿灯都亮红的。没关系，蚊子很努力的往草莓的家去。谁知，天竟然下了雨，蚊子的心，也随着雨的降落而感到不是滋味。不怕狂风暴雨的蚊子，抱着很坚决的心，终于到了草莓的家，就这样往它们所约的地方去。肚子饿的它们，一到了约会的地方，便去吃东西，草莓说要喂胖蚊子，时不时夹了些肉菜给蚊子，蚊子也一样，把烧好的肉，夹到草莓的碟上，还帮草莓吃完草莓所吃不完的饭，害蚊子重得飞不动，所以打算去逛逛街。在买着笔的时候，草莓的鼻子，不小心被笔墨弄脏了，蚊子忍不住笑了，告诉了草莓。醒目的蚊子，知道该怎么做，便赶紧帮草莓抹掉那个笔墨，那一刻的蚊子，感觉到了心跳，望着草莓，微笑了一下。接着，他们打算看一部戏。整个过程都有说有笑。坐在草莓旁边的蚊子，被草莓的发香给迷住了，蚊子还稍微调戏了草莓，气氛不再僵了。欢乐的时光总是过得特别快，转眼间，到了草莓回家的时候，蚊子知道，再怎样的幻想，再怎样的不舍得，也是要送草莓回家。一路上，气氛变得很沉重，蚊子和草莓都保持沉默。也许它们都知道什么才是最好的。天真的很喜欢玩弄，一路上的红绿灯，都变成绿色的。不知道是蚊子的翅膀，感觉变得很重，还是心情很沉重，它，飞得慢慢的。草莓也不说话，陪着蚊子。

“到了…” 蚊子说。

“嗯，好的，拜拜！”草莓回答。

“我…又有东西送你…” 蚊子变得口吃。

“什么来的啊？”草莓问。

“只是一张卡，只是明天才可以开哦！”蚊子吩咐。

“为什么呢？”草莓问说。

“没什么啊…”蚊子回答。

“那好吧，谢谢你咯…”草莓笑着回答。

蚊子慢慢的飞离草莓的家，看到草莓忘了一样东西，又飞回去拿给草莓它所买的东西。心情不稳定的蚊子，在回家的路途中，飞得时快时慢，变得很不专心。一回到家，翻开钢琴盖，往钢琴键猛弹，许多忧伤的旋律，不知不觉给那伤心的心灵带了出来。那一夜，蚊子睡不着，望着钢琴，湿了眼眶…

每一个字，代表了蚊子心中无法宣泄的忧伤、悲哀、不舍得…

爱·离开

脑袋的空白
是你带给我的未来
我的关怀
是对你的一份爱
想表白
却一次次失败
一想到你要离开
我就变得很不自在
时间过得真快
转眼剩一个礼拜
就是无奈
就是感慨
发现了我对你已是一种依赖
就因为距离成了我们的阻碍
但是我深深的明白
那是为了你的将来
心头涌出的那份悲哀
始终说不出来
好希望人生能够倒带
好让一切能够重来
不想望着那个背影的离开
却只能够祝福你有一个很好的未来
因为我给你的爱
已没收不回来

我真的真的真的第一次那么不舍得一个人…

Unearthed Earth Hour

For the major being, the awareness campaign was being promoted in TV, radio station, newspaper, fliers, poster, magazine and so on. Ridiculously, I couldn't feel any meaning of AWARENESS in this so-called campaign. I mean, is like a trend for the modern human to be a part of it. Everyone is just trying to follow what others do, correct me if I was wrong. And you guys should be curious of where I was during Earth Hour, right? I was in the Starbucks cafe of Centro. Some minor lights were off and it's still bright enough to see the face of people over the glasses. Imagine that! I couldn't say langsung not fun, we have our own funny conversation in the cafe though. After the Earth Hour was over, we headed to Station 1 listen to some nice songs. LOL! Lame enough laa...

Nothin' special. It's all by myself.



寂寞 到底是什么颜色？
看着你笑着人家的笑话
我恨我自己无能、无奈
在冷冰冰的空气里
喝着那杯有温度的咖啡
虚伪的微笑情不自禁
在我嘴边露了出来
人家问我 “那是你的女友吗？”
我只能微笑的摇头
既无奈 又复杂
喝着最后一口我最爱的咖啡
我感觉到的竟然是反胃
你说冷气吹着你很冷
我轻轻的摸了你那冰冰的手指头
我微笑着
希望那个微笑能带给你就那么一点的温暖
看着你时不时拿出手机sms
我却不知所措
我再度微笑
因为我已忘了如何哭泣
我知道困睡的你
已经睁不开眼睛
我很努力了
怕你闷
就说一些笑话来逗你
一想到你即将离开
心情变得怪异
第二次送你回家的那种心情
只有我自己才能了解
但是我知道
我只能做的不多
也不能做多
毕竟你我只是朋友罢了~

我闭上眼睛
因为我已不知道如何微笑

A very long night indeed

Yesterday has been a very long night. I'm sleepless and restless. I've lost in the middle of hot and humid darkness. My mind can't stop running after having a cup of hot Nescafe. I told myself is rather useless to continue weeping. I've gotta wake up from the nightmare and face it as what man does, right? Is just a girl. A very very mysterious one. Nothin' much. Yet, my hand is writting on the Pengajian Am exercise at 4am. The next morning, I could feel a little uncomfortable in my stomach, is like a washing machine. The day, is cloudy and rainy as it looked. Cold and cruel air fills the atmosphere of my class. I could hardly cheer up since then. God, is that you? I'm here, I'm fine. Looking out from the window just beside my table, the trees were waving as wind blows. The thread-like-rain drop horizontally. My heart was poked and grew holes. The time countdowns as it ticks away just like that. It's just few days away before you leave Klang, leaving your house and leaving me behind. Questions tranquelised me. It overwhelmed me mentally and physically. I've decided. I've gotta be strong and grow up to be a man just for you. I promised. I would study hard and stay on track.

Quote : Like her while u still like her.

发现

发现
我发现我已控制不住
每天都在胡思乱想

发现
我发现朋友变了
已经不是以前的他了

发现
我发现我很爱她
真的很爱很爱她

发现
我发现我害怕受伤
不再大胆地把爱说出口

发现
我发现我很懦弱
爱一个人很难吗？

发现
我发现时间不多
时间不容许我再考虑

发现
我发现那些道理
其实都是自欺欺人

但我却没发现
你就快离开了
害怕来不及
却开不了口
脑海里浮现着许多疑惑
到底该怎么办？

《爱一个人不一定要拥有他（她）》
我才不信有那么伟大的人
是追不到才用这些屁话来安慰自己

Cameron Trip '09

As what you guys acknowledged, I've been to Cameron Highland for 2days 1night. I did really enjoy the trip. The bus took me 6 hours to reach the peak of Cameron Highland. Gosh! On the way up to the Cameron Highland, some of my friends got dizzy and you know laaa... 'Milk shakes' everywhere. LOL! We had some great time on top, around 2pm, we stop to had our lunch... KJ mouth so big... then we go a Temple... That's KaiWen and SinYee SS-ing... At Cactus farm, spend some money there, I just 'spam' my sleep on the bus. Then we head to pasar malam. After that, we checked in our apartment. It's already 6pm that time. See CheeYong and you will know how cold it is... We rejuvenated ourselves by taking a really really really really freezing bath. We had our gay time at my room. Around 8pm, barbeque party starts. Boys were trying to lite up fire. As for girls, they prepared some stuffs and ingredients to make the party go wild!! Imagine 5 cats looking at you bbq-ing in the freezing cold night. Haha... that's what really happened. 5 fat cats staring at your food, meow here and there. Bloody cat = =! People started to become lesser and lesser. Some sleepy. Believe me, it's real tiring moment with cold and humid wind blowing at you. We played with our vapour came out from our mouth as if we were smoking. LOL again! Around 12pm, I slept after watching 'Hollowman' on HBO. Lame = =" Samz and other friends sleep at 5am... crazy enough! Edmund, Jun Xiang, Deville lagi syok, they donate their soul and body to the cold weather by sleeping at the balcony. Damn you guys. I was wearing 2 shirts and 1 thick blanket on top of me yet I felt like insanely freezing.

Next day, we woke up at 7.30am and check out at 8.30 sharp. After we had our breakfast... we went to Teh Boh's farm, bee's farm, strawberry farm, pasar tani. Some spectacular shots were taken at the tea's farm. AhChua and WenKeat's BEST shot!!! I bought 7 little glass of strawberry jam, strawberries and a bouquet of unprocessed white roses for her. Then we went downhills around 2pm.

Reach klang 4.5 hours later. Rush to Susin house bath, then CHIONG to Je's house. Thanks to Susin, Je, Qijia and Samzz, if it wasn't because of them, I couldn't finish the roses. Even though I had really prepare myself mentally, yet when I met her, whole mind went blank, I just smile at her and gave her what I planned to. From her feedback I knew that she din't know how to react. She stunned for few seconds. Haha... Tell you guys, SO DO I!

=)


Every miles travelled, represents how unwillingly I was to become further from you;
Every trees passedby from my sight, represents how many times I think about you.
The coldness of the atmosphere, couldn't even resist a voice of yours;
The warmth that I feel, is like the heat around the barbeque,
Many faces do show up at the queue, yet the only face that I could remember is you;
Many songs that I've repeated along the journey, yet I could hardly find a song just for you.
There were roses of multicolor, white is the only colour as fair as you;
There were sweet apple jambu, the sweetness is not even comparable with a smile of you.
Words that I couldn't say, will be the blacks and whites here.
and Even if the day turns grey, you are the only person that I care.