When everything lost meaning...

When butterfly lost its wings,
it would be only a prey for birds.

When a car lost its engine,
it would be only metals of junk.

When human lost their memories,
it would be only a shell for organs.

When I lost my mood on drawing,
my hand that holds the pencil,
lead that has been scratch with the paper,
would be erased over and over again.

When I lost the way of expression,
it would be a waste of inspiration across my soul.
This, is
When everything lost meaning...










I really hate myself when I couldn't draw. I really do.

today

OMG.. I passed my car test. 3 more days I shall get my license. Pheww... God bless...

I saw 1 Malay boy, his engine 'mati' more than 10 times... Everyone saw it lol. How 'paiseh' he was! Another case that is a girl who go 'langgar tiang'. 1 more accident is when a chinese girl came back from "On The Road" test, she drove her car into little drain.. Luckily she passed = =

Friday will be taking my license and my life is FREE from the bird cage!!!!!!!!!!!!

-God bless the day-

esok

esok aku ade test memandu.. cemasnye aku ni! let's hope for the best. gambateh desu~

apesal ngan aku ni, alah, holiday ni mmg mcm "couch slut" kut. apesal ngan aku?! Xmas dah nak sampai ni! lagi 1 minggu dah new year dah... ><

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On the same date of year 2007, I guess I was still an ordinary waiter serving those stupid and act-to-be-glamorous customers. Miss those moment though... With some colleague from Kampar, their mandarin is very Cantonese slang-ed. Even though some times, I broke glasses, I served thing onto the wrong table, "diao" by my a-kinda-fucker manager, so on and blablabla ...

This year, is totally a different thing! I turned 17 ( still a kid-looking one ), finally! I was able to take driving lesson! Can drive, can FLY~
I do slack some at home, tuition, tuiTION and TUITION. dota, dotA and DOTA! Form6 life, is not that hard as what I've imagined last year. What I need is disicpline, to finish up my homework given, to type tonnes of minute meeting's records and bunch of activities awaited me to be accomplished. 36 chapters of Physic, 20 over chapters of Pure Maths, 3 thick books of Chemistry, General Paper and lastly, a rather relaxing subject of all - MUET!!

Few days back, I tried to tidy up my room, and found out that I'VE LOST 1 CD of JAY CHOU!! I could find in nowhere! Damn... Sad la... Emo againz..

- a cup of Nescafe a day, keeps me high and gay -

Things that I

HATE

1st: Fight and Argue (cos I'm small in size, winning rate : 0.00001%)

2nd: My size (Help me!!)

3rd: Pressure (cos it would make me frustrated)

4th: When I drew some shyt out of my hand (It's ugly, trust me)

5th: Tonnes of homework (I mean those short questions of maths, but loooooong answer is required)

6th: Lonely (ANYONE OUT THERE? I'm single lol)

7th: Cheat (try it out and you will know what I mean)



LOVE

1st: Drawing (It sure it is!! No doubt about it!!!)

2nd: Watch Movie (get myself inspired to draw and write!)

3rd: Hang out with some DUDES (they used to talk about, errr..... wait let me think... just about anything, in other words, talk cock)

4th: Hot Nice Coffee (Cappuccino, Latte, Mocha, Machiatto...)

5th: My hair (It's my life)

6th: Form6 life (started to enjoy it pretty well IF I know what to filter...)

7th: Love (duh!)

8th: DotA (A game that most of the girls don't understand why their boyfriend willing to spend time on it rather than with them and one of the MAJOR enemy of my parent!)

9th: Jay Chou! (I wrote at 9th of the list is because I almost forgot about it! OMG)

10th: De Ja Vu! (cos I REALLY know what would happen next in the future! XD it's my secret and it's fun!!)

11th: Sleep (Rest well to prepare for a long journey, AM I RIGHT? Tell me if I was wrong...)



CONCLUSION
7 things of hatred and 11 things I loved. I'm still a positive, normal, optimistic teenage after all... Even though...

Bangkia : Eh, why am I writing these shyt??

Bangkia's brain: How I know? Don't ask me!

class gathering of 5s2 '07

We have gathered at Ijok steamboat buffet in setia alam. So many old classmates, miss you guys so much. What we did there? We eat.. and eat.. and eventually, we ATE a lot... We talked a lot of cock there too. The place was full of our noice and voice. Is like a pasar malam... Yet, some of them couldn't make it to the gathering though. Hope that our next gathering would be a full-attendance one. ^^

-random shot-

-imagine that went into our stomach-

-take a closer look again before u made any conclusion-
-3 balls left in the Tomyam part-
-eh, SS queen Wan Yee, Pei Wah and Teck Hong haven't ready laa-

-cam nilah baru betul!-

-guess what, ahkiat 'bi' pattern, summore got female bodyguard (Tiffy and Erin)-

-Lastly, SS queen with me!!-

We all had a great night!! ^^

你长大了

你长大了！今天在JJ里，遇见你，你，给我的感觉，真的不一样了！=)
看见你在F.O.S工作，还不确定，那个人就是你，哈哈。仔细再看一下咯，真的是你。XD
心想，下一下你吧，哈哈……

慢慢的，偷偷的，走到你身后。

“小姐，我想买这件衣服！”

“哈…………哈！是你！”

你笑了。感觉，你不再是以前的你了。好多好多，那一年的记忆，闪过我眼前。我，也微笑了。我们彼此都长大了…谢谢你给我的记忆。一个很完美的初中三…

-我的初恋-

Last Catch-up

In the month of December, I've found my superhero. One of my relative (don't know how to address his status in English), became my Maths tuition teacher =)

I am trying my very best to catch everything I missed out this year.

1st: My Maths!! is now completed 20% like that.

2nd: My Chemistry!! haven't really started.

3rd: My Physic!! Another diao subject = =

Holiday still left about 1month.

P/s: I play DotA more than I sleep. @@

P/s: My hair is long again. But next year have to cut short. Stupid school rules.

Philosophy of the day

Mr Ponnu says: Everyone does indeed own a house, but not everyone has a home.

Christmas lahh

Dah December dah. Can't wait for X'mas!! The feeling of sad and happy, all rojak together lah, alamak nasi lemak!! Ish..

How should I say? Erm, sad because of memories. Happy because I'm getting excited. Worry because She's going to Thailand where so much of political unstable, airports were hijacked. Blur because I don't really have plan on Christmas. Endless emotions that would inspired me to write more more and MORE stories. @@

I dunno, IF you still remember me onot, or even IF you knew that I always visit your blog. Anyway, take care, Shirlynn... =)