Thought, Just For You

Tomorrow, it's a girl's birthday. Well, a girl that I met at Station One Meru, on Valentine's Day. I've never post something new for quite sometime. I know, I am not good in handling relationship and sometimes my ignorance made her emotional. So, I would like to take this opportunity to let that girl know that although I'm not by her side on her birthday, Internet that makes us become closer together. That'y why I wrote this song Just For You!

Happy Birthday!




Try not to open this video,
cos... it sounds weird.. hahaha... not really good in singing = ="

平淡

日子
就像倒流的砂石
在玻璃瓶慢慢流逝

失去了所有的灵感
怎么写怎么画
都像坨粪

所有的东西
都好像把我逼的快喘不过气

好多好奇怪的回忆
一直在我脑海里浮现
明知却难制止

我们之间
好像不那么亲密了
距离在搞怪吗？
还是感觉？

或许只是错觉

身体也不那么健康
人生的低潮
真迎向着我而来
只是觉得
都受够了…

就是·爱这样

我以不知道要怎么样了

就是爱这样

身躯不再听从命令

一翻开书本

头上出现的竟是一团雾水

搞不清楚

也不明白

放弃

就很自然的

蔓延到我的意念

答应过你的

要好好读书

害怕你不高兴的样子

更加不想看到你失望的样子

我

就好像在沙时钟里

一分一秒

被沙子吞没

好久没有这样写部落格

也没了灵感

心情的交错及复杂

我

形容不出来

叹气

也就成为我唯一能做的事

我

仿佛听见

藏在心灵里恶魔

在奸笑着

它

打败了我

呼唤我懒惰、恶劣、暴躁的一面

黑色幽默

就是累计在我面具后的结晶品

嘴边不禁露出不自然的笑容

无情讽刺着坐在电脑面前打着这个部落格的人

就是

爱

这样…

sarcasm

It's never been too late
If you wanna made the very first step in study

It's never been too easy
If you don't wanna push yourself hard enough

It's never been too hard
If you had try your best

It's indeed sarcastic to say
that I understand the natural law of study
yet true enough
laziness and procrastination pull me out of my routine running track

I've gone through a stage
where I am really disappointed with myself
I couldn't find a point of equilibrium
between study and co-curriculum activities
between love and friendship
between family and myself

I always thought that I know myself well enough
yet again I've gotta say it sarcastically
I Don't Really Fucking Understand The True Side of Myself

I might look nice, kind, blur, innocent and perhaps underage
In fact, I am confused sometimes with my personality change

I disappointed many ones
and that excluded myself...

STPM is coming
when will I change myself into a matured thinking little teenager?

kuala selangor makan seafood

kaiwen: eh, later nite go KS eat seafood, u on?
bangkia: ok la no problem...
kaiwen: ok. i try ask other ppl.. if confirm i tell u...

The above conversation starts the whole event... after i listen to some famine30 group leader things, i go fetch some buddies. then str8 go kaiwen house wait some snails... zzZ

around 7pm sth like dat we all go KS... 130km/h is my top speed.. @@ wahahaha.. some gay is telling jokes while im driving and sprint all the way to KS... lol.. here's some photos.. XD

-bangkia and milky-

- 2 brokeback mountain gay-

-we indeed looked happy =D-

-cheers and makan lor... look at the sisa-sisa makanan-
-SM and TC, 2 gay lous-

-fuyoh fuyoh, "dai-ga-je" eng so serious-

haha... on my way back home, i drove 130km/h.. saw lots of fancy sports car. frens howling like wolf when they saw those cars.. too excited and they was a bit on alcoholic high @@

that's all.. chaoz. ^^

Finally

Finally, my blue tag is passed on to the next generation. As what our President said, it remains as a doubt whether is menyerahkan kebanggaan kepada AJK baru atau menyerahkan masalah kepada AJK baru. @@

I see some candicates were unhappy because they were not chosen as the new committees. I hope whatever the decision that has been made is the correct one. The new committees hopefully will be a very strong, united and non-political team.

Gambateh! We shall wait and see...

Relieved bangkia.

slow paces

my mood swings. it made me drove slowly yet not safely. all i have in my mind is about u and me. what we did yesterday night. i really put some deep thought into it. for some reasons, i would think that i m way off too childish for u. i love to play. i would love to have some freedoms. the prom we went, considered a tragedy for both of us. i thought u will be enjoying as much as i do. yet, u didn't. the whole tiring night, even when i woke up today, my mind still running and processing the data about u. am i really wrong? i hate myself when i made u sad. i hate myself for not good in making u smile happily. i hate myself. i m out of words to describe myself as a trash. for the time being, it seems like u reply every message reluctantly with only few words. my mind was stucked when i was trying to figure a way to solve our problem. i hardly know. i am just a jerk for u. i am naive. and i really hope that u would understand me. i really wanted to have some fun time in the prom after 2 tiring weeks of baby-sit those juniors on their task. i know that u would think the only focus i have is on my co-curricular activities but not u. sincerely, i am sorry for that. i really cant divide my focus. for past few weeks, the misunderstanding from my family, pressure from the study, all of that had almost drive me crazy. the only happy moment that i have is when u're beside me. yet, i've ruined the moment when i thought it should be enjoyable moment for both of us. i'm sorry if i really let u think that i was leaving u alone in the prom.

It is easy
to love each other deeply

Yet,
it is hard
to live and stay happy together all the time.
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