Sunday, March 29, 2009

Unearthed Earth Hour

For the major being, the awareness campaign was being promoted in TV, radio station, newspaper, fliers, poster, magazine and so on. Ridiculously, I couldn't feel any meaning of AWARENESS in this so-called campaign. I mean, is like a trend for the modern human to be a part of it. Everyone is just trying to follow what others do, correct me if I was wrong. And you guys should be curious of where I was during Earth Hour, right? I was in the Starbucks cafe of Centro. Some minor lights were off and it's still bright enough to see the face of people over the glasses. Imagine that! I couldn't say langsung not fun, we have our own funny conversation in the cafe though. After the Earth Hour was over, we headed to Station 1 listen to some nice songs. LOL! Lame enough laa...

Nothin' special. It's all by myself.



寂寞 到底是什么颜色?
看着你笑着人家的笑话
我恨我自己无能、无奈
在冷冰冰的空气里
喝着那杯有温度的咖啡
虚伪的微笑情不自禁
在我嘴边露了出来
人家问我 “那是你的女友吗?”
我只能微笑的摇头
既无奈 又复杂
喝着最后一口我最爱的咖啡
我感觉到的竟然是反胃
你说冷气吹着你很冷
我轻轻的摸了你那冰冰的手指头
我微笑着
希望那个微笑能带给你就那么一点的温暖
看着你时不时拿出手机sms
我却不知所措
我再度微笑
因为我已忘了如何哭泣
我知道困睡的你
已经睁不开眼睛
我很努力了
怕你闷
就说一些笑话来逗你
一想到你即将离开
心情变得怪异
第二次送你回家的那种心情
只有我自己才能了解
但是我知道
我只能做的不多
也不能做多
毕竟你我只是朋友罢了~







我闭上眼睛
因为我已不知道如何微笑


Tuesday, March 24, 2009

A very long night indeed

Yesterday has been a very long night. I'm sleepless and restless. I've lost in the middle of hot and humid darkness. My mind can't stop running after having a cup of hot Nescafe. I told myself is rather useless to continue weeping. I've gotta wake up from the nightmare and face it as what man does, right? Is just a girl. A very very mysterious one. Nothin' much. Yet, my hand is writting on the Pengajian Am exercise at 4am. The next morning, I could feel a little uncomfortable in my stomach, is like a washing machine. The day, is cloudy and rainy as it looked. Cold and cruel air fills the atmosphere of my class. I could hardly cheer up since then. God, is that you? I'm here, I'm fine. Looking out from the window just beside my table, the trees were waving as wind blows. The thread-like-rain drop horizontally. My heart was poked and grew holes. The time countdowns as it ticks away just like that. It's just few days away before you leave Klang, leaving your house and leaving me behind. Questions tranquelised me. It overwhelmed me mentally and physically. I've decided. I've gotta be strong and grow up to be a man just for you. I promised. I would study hard and stay on track.



Quote : Like her while u still like her.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

发现

发现
我发现我已控制不住
每天都在胡思乱想

发现
我发现朋友变了
已经不是以前的他了

发现
我发现我很爱她
真的很爱很爱她

发现
我发现我害怕受伤
不再大胆地把爱说出口

发现
我发现我很懦弱
爱一个人很难吗?

发现
我发现时间不多
时间不容许我再考虑

发现
我发现那些道理
其实都是自欺欺人

但我却没发现
你就快离开了
害怕来不及
却开不了口
脑海里浮现着许多疑惑
到底该怎么办?




《爱一个人不一定要拥有他(她)》
我才不信有那么伟大的人
是追不到才用这些屁话来安慰自己

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Cameron Trip '09

As what you guys acknowledged, I've been to Cameron Highland for 2days 1night. I did really enjoy the trip. The bus took me 6 hours to reach the peak of Cameron Highland. Gosh! On the way up to the Cameron Highland, some of my friends got dizzy and you know laaa... 'Milk shakes' everywhere. LOL! We had some great time on top, around 2pm, we stop to had our lunch... KJ mouth so big... then we go a Temple... That's KaiWen and SinYee SS-ing... At Cactus farm, spend some money there, I just 'spam' my sleep on the bus. Then we head to pasar malam. After that, we checked in our apartment. It's already 6pm that time. See CheeYong and you will know how cold it is... We rejuvenated ourselves by taking a really really really really freezing bath. We had our gay time at my room. Around 8pm, barbeque party starts. Boys were trying to lite up fire. As for girls, they prepared some stuffs and ingredients to make the party go wild!! Imagine 5 cats looking at you bbq-ing in the freezing cold night. Haha... that's what really happened. 5 fat cats staring at your food, meow here and there. Bloody cat = =! People started to become lesser and lesser. Some sleepy. Believe me, it's real tiring moment with cold and humid wind blowing at you. We played with our vapour came out from our mouth as if we were smoking. LOL again! Around 12pm, I slept after watching 'Hollowman' on HBO. Lame = =" Samz and other friends sleep at 5am... crazy enough! Edmund, Jun Xiang, Deville lagi syok, they donate their soul and body to the cold weather by sleeping at the balcony. Damn you guys. I was wearing 2 shirts and 1 thick blanket on top of me yet I felt like insanely freezing.

Next day, we woke up at 7.30am and check out at 8.30 sharp. After we had our breakfast... we went to Teh Boh's farm, bee's farm, strawberry farm, pasar tani. Some spectacular shots were taken at the tea's farm. AhChua and WenKeat's BEST shot!!! I bought 7 little glass of strawberry jam, strawberries and a bouquet of unprocessed white roses for her. Then we went downhills around 2pm.

Reach klang 4.5 hours later. Rush to Susin house bath, then CHIONG to Je's house. Thanks to Susin, Je, Qijia and Samzz, if it wasn't because of them, I couldn't finish the roses. Even though I had really prepare myself mentally, yet when I met her, whole mind went blank, I just smile at her and gave her what I planned to. From her feedback I knew that she din't know how to react. She stunned for few seconds. Haha... Tell you guys, SO DO I!

=)


Every miles travelled, represents how unwillingly I was to become further from you;
Every trees passedby from my sight, represents how many times I think about yo
u.
The coldness of the atmosphere,
couldn't even resist a voice of yours;
The warmth that I feel, is like the heat around the barbeque,
Many faces do show up at the queue,
yet the only face that I could remember is you;
Many songs that I've repeated along the journey, yet I could hardly find a song just for you.
There were roses of multicolor,
white is the only colour as fair as you;
There were sweet apple jambu, the sweetness is not even comparable with a smile of you.
Words that I couldn't say,
will be the blacks and whites here.
and
Even if the day turns grey, you are the only person that I care.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

It's 3.26am

OMG... I just came back from mamak-ing with friends. 3 more hours and I shall leave Klang and head towards Cameron Highlands. I try to take as many photos as I could. For some reason, I don't feel sleepy. That's why I am here crapping around. Ciaoz...




Plan to buy some thing for her, kinda miss her although she wouldn't know.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

A song that I compose

Random melodies..
enjoy.. just take some time to let it buffers... Comment pls... @@"

Friday, March 13, 2009

what I did for the last 2 weeks

Phew.. At last, MTE room's wall is done. Not much to say, enjoy the photos...




I rushed my work. done in 2weeks time...
Credits to
1) Jocelyn - MTE vice president (help me color and talk to me while I was bored)
2) Edmund Soo - MTE Event Master (help me color the switch)
3) Boon Tiong - Head of MTE QM (concern me even he's very busy)
4) Lo Chong Yee - Not a MTE member (help me on the splash and splat work)
5) Haziq - MTE member (entertain me by playing his acoustic guitar)
and others too... just that too many people liao.. MTE banzai!!

人生就像…

爱像一阵风
吹完它就走
这样的节奏
谁都无可奈何
没有你以后
我灵魂失控
黑云在降落
我被它拖着走
静静悄悄默默离开
陷入了危险边缘baby~
我的世界已狂风暴雨
wu~爱情来的太快就像龙卷风
离不开暴风圈来不及逃
我不能再想
我不能再想
我不我不我不能
爱情走的太快就像龙卷风
不能承受我已无处可躲
我不要再想
我不要再想
我不我不我不要再想你
爱情来的太快就像龙卷风
不知不觉
你已经离开我
不知不觉
我跟了这节奏
后知后觉
又过了一个秋
后知后觉
我该好好生活

* * * * * *

其实放手并不难
听着周董的《龙卷风》
不知不觉
感觉爱情真的来得很快
也走得很快

拼命催眠自己
相信明天会更好
她的不理不睬
我骗自己
说是她在忙
她的简讯
都不超过10个字
这一切的一切
都让我慢慢感觉到
是时候放手了

其实放手并不难
只要找到人生更重要的东西
来转移注意力
从爱情到功课 学业 嗜好
这一些都能让自己活得舒服一点
我还以为只有自己会遭遇这一类型的状况
原来身边好几个朋友
也不会好到哪去

其实放手并不难
我领悟到了人生的意义
耳边传来一个坏消息
一位好朋友的爸爸去世了
人生 不只是爱情而已
望着老爸老妈的背影
他们… 老了
在他们的笑容里
我发现了皱纹
岁月的痕迹
不知不觉
我都18岁了
还有一个很重要的考试正冲着我来
我准备好了吗?



人生就像龙卷风

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Yes or No

There's a garden of vines
which lies upon my eyes
Poisons and bloody spikes
are the only things on my sight
Curiosity and fear fights
Struggle to repel being hide
I want to take on my ride
and head towards the painful hike
OR just turn to the peaceful tide?


some say yes, some say no
what I could say is I dunno...

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

越不了

始终… 越不了那道隐形的墙…




等待

Monday, March 9, 2009

这不是心跳

那一天,我更加肯定我已爱上她了。同时,也发现我对她的感觉,不是只是心跳那么简单。那又是什么呢?
每当我想起她,总是觉得心快掉下来。
要怎么形容呢?就好像从十层楼掉的下来,坐过山车的感觉。
那就是所谓爱吗?我不敢说是“大爱”。只是我不会如何表达出来,才会让她感受到。
我很担心,我这样子,会让她误会说我不喜欢她,不对,应该说怕她会误会我不爱她。
我真的好像说出口,但就是开不了口。

心跳和心掉又有什么分别呢?

当你看见喜欢的人,心会不停的猛跳。甚至脑冲血,面红耳赤,也会不停的想她。希望她能一直在你身边陪你。这就是心跳。

当你看见你爱的人,心也会不停的猛跳。只是当你想起她和你在一起的时光,你会微笑,闭上眼睛,可有千千万万个她浮现在脑海。可是同时,也会为她而烦恼,早上烦恼着她吃早餐了没;下午烦恼着她会不会闷、正在做些什么;晚上烦恼着她睡不睡的好…这一切,都让你替她感到着急,心就好像真的从十楼掉下来的感觉。你不会要求什么,只祈福着她快乐、平安。就是那么简单的东西,你却心满意足了。这才是心掉。一种能让男人掉下眼泪的感动。

所有的喜欢,都是从好感慢慢演变而成的。而所有的爱,都是从喜欢慢慢发展的。那是一个必经的过程。所以,爱必须要两个人精心去经营的,这样才能让爱的结晶品诞生。



慢慢的,我发现,我好不正常哦 (⊙o⊙")

Sunday, March 8, 2009

谢谢 第一次 07.03.09

谢谢
陪我看完《幸福万岁》
看着你 望着你
你的笑容
我真的感到莫名的开心
紧张的心情
也顿时松懈了
和你在一起的时候
都不会不自然

要是真的有雨神和天神
我也要谢谢祂们
祂们 好像真的听见我的祈祷
让我和她在一起的时候都不下雨
真的谢谢您!

我也要谢谢我的妹妹
第一次
感觉那么信任她

还要谢谢我的一班朋友
一直抛酸柑、橙、酸梅
跟你们讲
我觉得很甜

我不知道还要谢谢谁了
总之 谢谢!!


感动的蚊子~

Friday, March 6, 2009

What's the time now?

What's the time now?
I ain't feeling any excitement.
I ain't feeling any worries.
Awkwardly, calm is the only thing I could feel.

What's this?
What's going on?
Some of my friend told me that is good to be calm
so things would happen naturally.
Is it?
I asked myself.
It is not that I don't believe what I was told.
Is that I don't have the confidence.

I knew
there's a little part of me still having some sort of confusion.
And for that
I hope the feeling won't border me much.
God bless bangkia~


Bless us U_U

Thursday, March 5, 2009

是酱的咯

不明白到底她在想什么
真的
我问朋友 什么是爱情
他们都说 爱情
是酱得咯
不能解释
不能理解
不知所措
不得不爱
不三不四
那就是爱


不懂咯,真的…

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

在哪里?

迷路了
心脏旁边
肺的左边
脑袋里面
甚至心灵里
我都找不到真正的自己
好想把戴着面具
给打碎 打烂
那不是你!那是别人的影子!笨蛋!
就算是一个稻草人
也有自己的身份
难道说身为一个活生生的人
我却不能证明
我就是我
你就是你
她就是她
人类的面孔
我看穿了
是会有哪个人不戴面具面对现实
我相信 他是个笨蛋 或者真的很天真
你敢说 你能完全把你自己心底的东西都摊出来吗?
就算你真的这么做 你的潜意识 也会阻止你的
有时候 人类就是那么犯贱 那么的自卑
你敢说 你表现出来的那一面
就是真真实实的你吗?


我都不敢…

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

什么

真的好像把门关上
不让别人进入我的世界
看见人家
在屋顶唱着他们的歌
心开始矛盾

梦中看见自己一个人坐在包厢里面
手机也真的该让它休息了
翻着我们曾经的简讯
想念若阴若现

真的好难
相切割又切不断的回忆
常常问自己
到底在做些什么
人偶? 还是傀儡?

我会接受
这一切
生活里的
不完美
已经是第四次了
到底在我眼前的
是什么?


渐渐地把爱情视为游戏·不想再去相信爱情会发生在我身上。
问你们一个问题:
当你们想到“心”,它是什么颜色呢?红还是黑?
(我看见的是逐渐转移成黑色的红色心)

你呢?=)