I am gonna confess to the world, that I hate playboy and those so called flower hearted, as in direct translation from chinese. Yet, ironically, I am one of them. I enjoy being cared, loved and those hidden admiring feeling found deep inside everyone's bottom heart. Slowly, I am turning into what I, myself hate the most. Irresponsible jerked bastard.
I enjoy, most of the social activities. I like mixing up with different group, races, religion, nation of people. I do feel a little proud of myself for being not too shy with stranger, with condition. And that, makes me feel that I have a lot of choice. Most probably the whole thing is caused by my childish. Why would such thought appear in my mind?
I promise myself, not to step into such thing anymore. Not before I could even trust myself. Friends, is what I need the most now. Help me and save me from demonic-evil devil. I am trying to find exit to gateway of light. I couldn't help myself other than just getting myself deeper and deeper into the quicksand. Seriously, I am not o-k-a-y.
So, I guess it's time. For me to confess to my friends and my blog stalkers. I wanna ask, at this point, is that a normal phenomenon or it just simply disastrous to be such kind of person?
I still love 99.99% of myself.
but when it comes to L.O.V.E
I hate the another 0.01% of myself.
but when it comes to L.O.V.E
I hate the another 0.01% of myself.
5 comments:
Good one, you just went through something i did before. Nice effort !
swt.. like dat call nice effort
You won't learn to stand up until you fell down once. Something like this is actually a process of growing up. Chill and get over with it ya ! We go yumcha sometimes, i'll consult you. LOL !
LOL = =
actually its a normal phenomenon cause evryone sure will get that...
even i myself also sometimes will tinking of that...
actually that's not because of ur childishness....
for sure evyone also enjoy the feeling of be cared, loved by others...
that is good actually to be socialised with others because its very important in this world...
so...
just be urself...
dun tink too much of that...
mayb u can tink on the other way else...
use a opposite opinion to face these problms...
mayb u will find ur gateway...
When somethings do not belongs to u, how even u force, it will not be urs also, evrything just leave to fate...
"God doesn't require u to be the best, He just want u to do ur best and He will take care the rest for u, u are in God's hand"
so, just do ur best enough already...
take care
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