Sunday, June 27, 2010

心情的复杂

我必须适应,现在所处于的环境,也只能跟着环境来做最适合的调整。
要一直提醒自己,别人已经出车,我还像小孩子。长不大。

你昨晚,提醒了我,也点醒了我。我知道我的孩子气,让你累了。很抱歉,我也只想花多一点时间在我们俩身上。但时间却又3/4是被工作占据了。扣除休息时间,应该没有多过2小时吧。

我很容易自卑,你也知道。
我很不会做人,你也知道。
我很不上进,你我也知道。

只想找个地方休息,好好休息。不想任何事。不烦恼。
只能像个工作狂。
只能妄想着未来是多么的风采、多么的幸福,来激励自己。
我越来越不像自己了。

朋友们,要是下次看见我变了,请不要还怕,我只多了一层保护色,来掩饰自己的悲哀。
好好地为自己的前途努力下去吧,每个人都有不同的命运,每个选择都有它的利与弊。不要埋怨为什么我每次都会说没时间,因为我,就只有半夜三更。一个真真属于我的时段,一个普通人都已入睡的半夜三更。加油吧,朋友们!





只能无奈地微笑着
然后望着前方迷惘的未来
走着走着…

Friday, June 11, 2010

piercing heart

I've changed, recently.

emo.

down.

self-hatred.

and all sorts of negative thinking.


I realised.

my ability to adapt is poor.

he's the person that far beyond my level

whom I could not reach.


I've awaken.

eyes were opened.

dreams were broken.


I've to constantly make myself

knowledgeable

and

pick up what I am losing right now.


Words could heal

yet it will too, make us ill.

Cruel and harsh reality for being weak.


I've gotta make myself match with his speed.

better,

catch up and pick up.

but,

How?



save me.
anyone?