Hypo Hydro

Blog while waiting a DotA game to be commenced.

Finally,
My family found out.
It's a big relief. Even though we both have a peace break up. Nothin much. Nothin less.
I guess, it's the right time to do so. Thanks for the memories. Thanks for everything.
I might not be a very perfect boyfriend. But I'm a good friend-to-be, still. =)

For those people who knows the unmasked side of mine, I hope, I could trust everyone of you.
I'm a joker, apparently. I could be very cheerful. I could be nice. I could be just as idiot. Yet I was hoping for supportive words. You guys might think that I am a playboy. Puppy Love as what adults said. I just follow what my heart tells me. So, stop bugging me with those destructive words. I am very kind to tell you so. You could give me any type of advice, but don't you ever drag me from behind. I could do something that is enough for you to suffer if you were using those evil tactics. =)

Buh... Continues DotA. No worries. I am still bangkia.

F.C.U.K

I'm getting more and more fucked up with this fucking fucked life. Please fuck off bloody fuck. Fuck it with all the fucking might to fuck my shitty life. How can I supposed to turn my fucking life back to normal happy life? Fucking holidays makes me feel I'm totally bloody fucking useless bastard. Everything is just so fucked up. Fuck My Life for now.

Cherish life still
Just expressing ma'self

take aim

taking aim
is you
that made me do so

doubt
confusion
worry
wonder
so many many things ran across my mind

I smile
for an instant moment
knowing
I've to pass this test
from God

I will survive...

in the middle of a game...

plum joker

fading rainbow
as sun sets
heard the rain
as cloud came

midst of darkness
where lights came
disappearing hand
where trigger is pulled

move on
life's brief candle
it and it
fall apart

I've failed you
I've failed myself
I've been treated
which I was supposed to be

it's a new start
a new life
a new joke
yet
an old me

If I pull the trigger this time
I thought it's the right time to do so.

说谎

美丽 也只是个虚伪的形容词

我哪有说谎

这只是世界在编的谎言

好久不见了

你

还好吗？

美丽 不再是漂亮

曾经的对象

曾经的念头

想出轨的念头

曾经的你 有多难忘

我们的曾经

让我顿时感觉世界在停电

休息一会儿

我没有说谎

我何必说谎？

只是我真的很健忘

我是个普通的男生

想念你了

现在的我

考完试后的我

就像个颓废的家伙

阴恢恢的心情

彩虹何时才能出现？

这都是谎言

何况也只是个无聊的骗局

我再也不相信自己

我不会假装

只是在逞强

失去了对世界的感觉

失去了感官

失去说有的灵感

迷失自我

被人拆穿

又在伪装

空洞

填补不了

我

都是我吧？

我又在emo了…